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3 Years Passed

313 page views on December 31, 2002
886 page views on January 9, 2003
Access number per day returns normal. At the same time I realized that the New Year finished, negative energy overwhelms me.
Do most people use the Internet mainly in telephone-charges service time?
Or are they lost in thought at midnight?
Serious mails usually come at midnight, especially not from patients themselves but from their family.
It concerns people's life and death, I correspond to it by top priority.
Sometimes I do it after 2:00 a.m.
I do understand their feeling of impatience when pronounced as cancer.
Nevertheless, negative energy serves as my stress and my quantity of alcohol and tobacco increases.

I wrote three years ago:-
Medical treatment based on EBM can be desirable.
Who treats other one's life as same way as he treats his own life?
Make a final judgment in self responsibility!
Nevertheless, a patient's family asked me,
" Please persuade him to receive chemradiation therapy until he convinces."
I replied, however, as usual
" Please respect his intention. He is not a child and he will be convinced to whatever as far as it is the result of his selection .
In case you persuade him and a result is failure, you have to live with regret throughout life."
Reckless mails asking for help without reading throughout my website or link sites.

Most inferior question - "Where is NCC Hospital East located? "How much time do I need to cope with such fellows?

Then, I tried bulletin board again to borrow my cancer comrade's power for correspondence.
But there were a small number of cooperators who can use a personal computer, then their burden was too much.

Moreover, most of bulletin writings were not objective nor fact but fanatic, affective , non-reproducible and non-scientific backing as if they were true.
Please guess such participants are male or female.
Every day my feeling was trampled down even thou I was replying to their mails considering to share my luck.

I closed the bulletin board again.
When the bulletin board was closed and the mail address was deleted, an outlaw telephoned me suddenly.
I keep my mail address displayed.
However, give-and-take.
If a person asks a preceding person for an opinion of a preceding person, consistently he must do his duty when he becomes a preceding person to others.
Recently I changed my reply - "I do help you, but will you contribute when you complete your medical treatment successfully?"

It is settled now! I do not have such spare time to chat with an egoist who does not support others although he is unreserved to ask for others' hand when he is at a loss.
As soon as I wrote in my website "Spending my time with selfish persons is useless.
I am going to leave my role to other websites from now on.
This site is due to be closed one of these days!"
MY, whom I had assisted first, threatened me(^_^;)
" Three years passed and are you running away with the winnings? Punishment is incurred -- "
O. K. I understand. I will not close my site.
Is it short or long? This past three years.
Went for third-year inspection feeling strain higher than second-year's.

Luckily inspection ended with no problems!
2003/02/07 Held the off-line gathering in the Ginza. The participant counted double than last-year's.

It wrote in the page of National Cancer Center East(http://yamai.org/hospital/cencer.center.east.htm) as follows:-
-25 December: I made my best effort to collect information in the smoking room as I did so far. However, due to the location of the Hospital(?), all patients order a dish of the day. Moreover, I could find no esophagus cancer patient. 26 December: I went to the smoking room again. I found two at last. They are Messes. K and S. Both of them are Dr.Ohtsu's patients. Their protocol is the same as that of mine. I asked them, "How do you feel?" Mr. K. said, "I have a little damage like carsickness." Mr.S. said, "I feel somewhat I lost appetite. Both replied at ease. Seeing is believing. I made up my mind.

Time passed.
Recently I heard Mr. K did He was urgently taken from his work place to S Hospital in Tokyo by the ambulance.

Overnight stay cost over 100,000 yen single room.
He underwent an operation. Nevertheless cancer recurred and was sent to NCC Hospital East.
I never met Mr. K after that.
I met Mr. S frequently in the hospital and he gave me phone calls.
Although he said he was fine, the recurrence was checked by the second-year inspection in autumn 2001.
Treatment was resumed with another anti-cancer agent. He was alive one and half years, but at last dead.

His wife let me know it ten days later on 2003/2/17.
I join my palms together and prayed for the bliss of the dead. I was indebted to him.

I had a meal with MY at Kamiya in Imperial Theater on 2003/2/17.
I ordered deep-fried oysters to feel the season as well as joy of life.
" We have the mission to tell our present condition," he said.

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